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April 25, 2005 7:18:13 AM

what a weekend. starting with thursday i helped a buddy shoot his film for an LA wide event called 168. He asked me to shoot the whole thing but about 2 hours into it he took the camera and did it himself – so that was kind of a bummer. I ended up just doing boom stuff and being an extra which is much less interesting (to me) than shooting it. thursday night we went to this hip hop thing at fuller where i filmed that. then friday night i was asked to film the festival of nations which is basically all the international students make food from their different countries and the rest of fuller comes and chows down. it is a blast. my buddy chase and his wife kate and their 1 month old Wren came over saturday night to kick it with us, Hebrew National style (to kick off the passover). okay we didn’t actually mean to kick off the passover but i guess we inadvertently did, and with Hebrew National hot dogs nonetheless (on the grill Canton Ohio style…(?)…

That make me remember the “good ol days” back on 8th street when we would just randomly invite all our friends over for a cook out on our front porche in our happy little downtown home and since we have such a small grille we would do the meal in shifts. some friends would go up into our music room and play on my Rhodes, the guitars and drumset have an instantaneous jam session. what great times.

anyways – we did something like that on saturday with the Roden’s and their sweet new daughter. Chase helped me add another hard drive (the fourth) to my video editing computer so i can keep pumping out the videos for all the world to…wonder why i am making videos…

Then on sunday we got to kick it with our good friend Tressa Watts from good ol’ BFYG, and Barberton Ohio – home of the chicken champions – though i think i may be the only one who is proud of that fact. Tressa was in Anaheim for a school related convention and since she had all of sunday afternoon off we went down to hang out. it was a lot of fun, we went to laguna beach and walked around there for a few hours. then i got a ticket by a very un-nice cop who pulled me over for making a U turn over double yellow lines. I didn’t know you couldn’t do that, i thought you could make a U turn anywhere in CA – so now i have to go back to driving school. i wonder if i should take my laptop for notes like i do at Fuller?

I was glad that it was Tressa’s first time being in a car that is pulled over, that i got to show her the ropes a little, yet keep everything under control at the same time, i made sure nobody got to out of hand, except for the part where emily can the female officer – “sir” on accident. i got a little worried there, but no sweat i made up for it by putting a sock in emily’s mouth and telling the officer that my daughter has turrets syndrome. the lady gave me a ticket and that was it, i guess they are going to mail me a bill or a court date or whatever. dang it! its been like 7-8 years since i have gotten a ticket.

well – it was fun hanging out with Tressa and hearing her stories about all the BFYG kids. good stuff. we miss everyone back home but for now we are making due in this crazy place they call LAhmajune.

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April 17, 2005 10:08:45 PM

things: thoughts and mainly critiques.

1. what is my faith without it being radical? the modern day readers who find the Scriptures comforting and warming to the spirit have narrowed God down to a do-it-yourself spirituality – to a network television program about angels and miracles. when i read the end of Luke chapter 9 I see Jesus’ baffling evangelistic techniques. here are some loose paraphrases “sure if you want to follow know that I am homeless with no place to sleep. so you want to follow me well you have to forget about your dying father. you’d like follow me, well you gotta leave those friends who are calling you away from me. you’d like to follow me, you must know that if you put your hand to the plow then you can’t look back – you can’t live with one foot in and one foot out of my kingdom – this is an exclusive membership that costs everything.”

now he didn’t mean this symbolically – because from reading i see real people walking away not being able to be saved. Jesus’ evangelistic tactics such in today’s “purpose driven church” standards – or marketing fueled techniques to get people into a building we now falsely call the church. if its not symbolic then jesus must have really been pretty radical – and i don’t mean that it takes a radical to add a single piece of knowledge to his or her head saying “i believe that Jesus died for my sins.” no, that is not radical. what is radical is refusing to buy nice things when you know you can have them via credit cards, not doing things because you know in the long run they are not healthy for you spiritually even though everyone around you says your “entitled to them,” not having a tv, owning no car – let alone a gas guzzling yacht on wheels. what is radical is to live a life filled with prayer to an unseen God, a life of disciplines, prudence, temperance, living a life of peace as opposed to violence, giving your sandwich to a bag lady you saw drinking a beer yesterday. letting scripture transform the way you live is radical. questioning culture, media, the powers that be to follow a homeless shepherd from Galilee – in hopes of him starting a revolution with no guns, no money, no status, and a bunch of rowdy sailors – no that is radical.

2. extreme makeover – Christ edition. watching the extreme makeover home edition has been something that emily and i have recently enjoyed doing, but as i become more aware of the overwhelming impact of TV on my and my wife’s self-perception i have noticed things that are better left unsaid. but i’ll say one thing, for such a nice heartwarming show, as the home edition it teaches one very untheological and non-christian point (though we might expect this to be true from the powers of Disney/ABC) – beautiful and expensive things are the fulfillment of people’s dreams and have the opportunity to become the hope for those devastated by loss. it is an anti-sojourner theology – that by my acquiring things and a wonderful home, that no one in their right mind would ever leave, i can be healed from the struggles of life. this mentality definitely considers the central community outcry of complete dependency on the Lord “give us this day our daily bread” null. what if the church were to show abc how to do it right? by rebuilding not only a house but also lives through the love and power of the holy spirit?

3. republicans and democrats: recently i realized i find it sad that i can categorize churches by their political preference – as though political preference has not become a broader bigger, more influence umbrella than any theological umbrella in the world. and further that many people i know would never consider going to another church outside of that political preference – irregardless of how true to God’s word that church really is. is this worrisome? that culture is transforming the church so much? show the church be that predictable – should it have such an earthbound allegiance (i realize this is what the power of the “pledge of allegience’s” rhetoric hopes to teach us)? then we begin to consider how many political options were open for Christ, and how he subverted every single one of them…the homeless shepherd revolutionary. dang it.

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i just read a robert frost poem “reluctance” which was really good, it talked about seasons coming to an end, and how we are reluctant to let seasons (and loves) come to an end – that it is a part of humanity to be reluctant. i thought it was good.

anyways we are heading off for death valley today.
but first we must have a wyldlife event, the first one ever
for RMS. we are really excited and are believing for a lot of kids,
we have invited some and are hoping that God spread the word for us.

lots of craziness.
actually this qtr haas been going really well. i have been busy but nothing like last qtr, i have felt relaxed and at ease. i have also had very few headaches that the LOrd.

lately i have been getting more excited about pastoral ministry again, feeling like it is something i want to master, i mean this is a workmanship/trade kind of way, that i want to be good at it, i want to learn how to be a humble leader, i want to lead/shepherd the body of Christ, be an amazing listener, i want to help inform the church of its history and heritage, help it to understand today and tomorrow, i want to be a part of forming communities, shaping lives, brining justice, doing art, reform ecclesiology and mission, and bring healing. i guess i haven’t experienced any pastors that fit this exact mold, i don’t know what it means to do all this, i don’t even know if it is humanly possible, i want to find out if this is what the spirit can do through me.

i want to do theology.
i want to teach.
i want to create.
i want to love, weep and love more.

show us the way Lord.

we said last night that if Cleveland Heights had an opening for a Friends Church we would go next year and do it. I wonder what God thinks of these silly statements?

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I am a human being
I am a White man and I bare the scares of those before me
I am a critical person born to drug-doing, free-loving hippies
I am a dreamer and I dream in my films
I am a friend who wants to befriend the unlovely
I am a believer in the unseen
I am a believer in the obvious and hard to varify
I am a husband in love with my young and lovely wife
I am a door-stop and a keeper of two worlds juxtoposed to one another
I am a folk singer making prophetic words sound like everyday apathetic readings
I am a speaker of unheard truths
I am an american who does not want to be rich
I am one who does not want to live in the suburbs, or be the “american dream.”
I am the american dream because I dream of what america might have been
I am the american dreamer because I dream of what american is not
I am a thinker and philospher, a theologian, student and quaker informed by my predecessors – wondering if you know what you are and what informs that knowing?