Road maps to my soul

"I am the woman with no head"
Originally uploaded by cwdaniels.

I just started using, it is a pretty sweet site. I heard about it through macworld. you might like to try it out – it is mac friendly which is the biggest plus. This is a picture of me playing my folk music back in Ohio a couple years back now. It is kind of in honor of finishing Dylan’s “Chronicles.” A book that has urged me back to back to the guitar, back to music, an expression that has been lost over the last year, since my dad killed himself. So i wander into a dark room, pick up my guitar, a gift from my wife, and begin to draw roads maps to my soul out for the world to see.

To the theme of Psalm 16 – by Joel Short

Madness and kicking it anabaptist style:
We just got done playing our fuller flag tournament. Sparkle motion lost in its second game. we fought hard and went down swinging, what more could you want in a loss? Finals are only 6 more days. then freedom – well at least for 3 weeks. I need it.

in our Old Testament class we this qtr we had to do creative projects on a psalm. I did a video and thus cannot put it up on here because it is too big, but i have something even more provocative than one of my “justice for the poor” videos. this poem below was created by a friend of mine, Joel Short. He kind of built it off of Psalm 16, he obviously took some liberties but kind of made it current for our situation. I encourage you to read it and comment on his perspectives.

he is not a Quaker but i think he would make a good one. 🙂

To the theme of Psalm 16 by Joel Short

God, don’t step backwards.
I’m hiding here behind you.

Remember, Yahweh?
I’m the one who loves you.
You are my God,
my only hope for joy.

But just look around us
in every direction,
people stumbling over each other
to fornicate with other gods:

they parade for the goddess Macy’s
and stand in line to offer her cash,
work their fingers bloody and pave your planet ash-grey for the SUV gods
feed bloodied corpses to the goddess America (and demand that you bless her)
seek out dark and secret corners to submit to Lust
(through her avatars Pornography, Prostitution, Infidelity),
recline religiously before the Television god
to learn what to crave, what to fear, what to hate.

They scream the Torah of Fox News in the breakroom
or chant the Wisdom of goddess Oprah at cocktail parties.
In the Temple Starbucks they commune on the full-bodied bean juice of the Caffeine god;
they twist, bend, pump, and grunt their devotion to their own bodies in Fitness Centers,
then pour libations of alcohol to the god Good Times in the name of the god Friendship.
Keeping Football’s sacred Sabbath, honoring the Weekend to keep it fun,
planning services for the Dating god, festivals for the Wedding goddess, nursuries for the Maternal Instinct god,
chasing the elusive god Knowledge through libraries, classrooms and books on CD,
hallowing the deity Domesticity in how-to TV shows, then streaming to the holy mountain of Home Depot,
flipping through Cosmopolitan, Martha Stewart magazines, Craft Fairs, Salons in search of the godess Feminine Mystique,
pumping deer full of ammunition to feed the blood-lust of insecure Masculinity,
dieting to the god Body Image,
devoting hours of worry and plotting to the mighty goddess Career,
dreaming at night of the Joneses, gods of the neighborhood,
gyrating to the god Youth in bars and night clubs,
blaring music to the god Exhilaration,
tweaking for the god Ecstasy,
vomiting for the god Anxiety,
back-stabbing for the god Success,
pounding their children into temple regalia
gutting the poor and the weak on blood-greased altars
frying their own sacred lives in distraction,
they love themselves orgiastically, cannabalistically
they ache for destruction and release.

Look at them, always tantalized by
the irresistable god Beauty,
the stunning god Style,
the ephemeral goddess Gracefulness,
the snobbish goddess Aesthetics,
the addicting god Attention,
the fleeting goddess Intimacy,
the alluring god Rest,
the comforting god Sentimentality,
the time-eating god Triviality,
the delusional goddess Self-Realization,

Ever taunted by
the stodgy goddess Reputation,
the demanding god Control,
the resentful goddess Manners,
the proud god Cleanliness,
the compulsive god Rule-keeping,
the detached god Reason
the fickle god Health,
the competitive goddess Sophistication,
the demeaning god Sexual Power.

Determined to trade You for
the god Churchianity
the god Worship Experience
the Getting-What-I-Deserve god
the god of Unconsidered Ritual
the Ideology god
the Republican god
the Church Program god
the Denominational god
the Suburban god
the tired and kind Old-Man-Upstairs god.

Feeling left out, God?
The United Union of Powers and Principalities
says these are their terms, Yahweh:
you can join, if you like, they’re even willing to grant you
pride of place in their pantheon – you can be the spokesman,
you can pretend you’re Charlton Heston, you know,
since you’re so old and distinguished,
they’ll see you get change in your offering plate
and a rushed prayer at dinnertime
it’s a win-win,
just agree to stop saying things like
“I scorn your festivals”
and “Is that what you call fasting?”
Surely there’s enough worship to go around?. . .

Smite them into oblivion, Yahweh!
Never will I pour out my life before these gods,
Cling to me, my God.
Keep me from the futile worship of Myself in any of these guises.

Whisper my name to me, Yahweh,
and I know I live,
inhaling as you exhale for me,
dwelling upon you
feeding upon you
my only existence derivative,
subsisting on you presence.

Cuddle into me, my God,
over and beside and under me,
chill me again with your warmth,
with shivers of awe up my neck
and past my ears—remind me
that you won’t abandon me,
that death can’t separate me from you—
for I am in you
and you Will Be
what you Will Be.

One, yet two-parents, in Three:
I am your nestling.
I fly, and you glide beside;
I plummet, you soar beneath.
Cover me eternally
but nudge me forward
into your sky.

Getting to "Over Coffee"

There are three weeks left in this insane qtr – Five classes is too much to do in grad school people. I stayed up last night until 1:00 am which is really freaking late for me – I usually and falling asleep by 10. We get up at 6am so that is a needed thing in the Daniels family. Anyways I was working on a Script for this Media and Ministry Class i am taking. It is the first Script i have ever worked on – I have two other people in my group who are a great help and I certainly haven’t done the whole thing but it is fun to be apart of the process. I am going to be the director/camera man for the short which I cannot wait for.

Here is the pitch:
An Italian butcher, a tall Russian photographer, and a beautiful young art
collector are all aquantainces who meet over their favorite cup of coffee. What
they don’t realize is that their hidden identities – as a mobster, robber and
hit woman – are all intertwined in a crazy web of deception and are about
to hurt the ones they love – each other.

It’s called “Over Coffee”
– Though I am somewhat critical of the name at this point.

On another note – I have found some stallness in my own spiritual life – I have gotten to the point of being really preoccupied with “everything.” I hate these moments in life – when I make little time to spend with YWH. I have been praying through the day, and thinking about the Lord, even having good conversation with people. But two things I long for – contemplation and struggling together with those who are in the trenches of life. This is where preoccupation strikes first – I become me-centered – and worrying about all the real things I need to get done, but in the process the real issues of those around me are ever-present and eating away at their spirits (my issues don’t present such peril). As a disciple of Christ I need to be focused on the “struggling with” others.

Emily, Wall and I are going backpacking for Fri and Sat of this coming week, I cannot wait for sometime to remove myself from this hussle bussle of LA.

Americans, Rights, and Voting

“MY Right”

I like millions of others voted today, the painless process of excersizing “my right.” there was a sense of satisfaction every time i clicked that little “inkavote” pen. i did wonder who keeps thinking of these out-dated forms of voting. I was glad that it was in a retirement home also – the elderly seem to me to know much more about politics than anyone else i’ve ever met. they always appear to have such a nuanced position…hmmm…i guess after generations of time you would become nuanced.

anyways i found this and though i know it doesn’t make much difference on who to vote for, i thought this was incredibly well put.

these are seven things to think about when voting (or for that matter thinking about politics at all). these are from a pastor in Indiana named John Hay Jr.

1. I ask of any candidate’s or administration’s positions and proposals, “What does it do to the poor?”

2. I do not expect the American president to be a Christian or my brand of Christian.

3. I recognize that the priorities of the kingdom of God and the agendas of American presidents and governments are not the same.

4. I look for a candidate who I think will lead compassionately, not just talk about compassion.

5. I recognize that most “all-or-nothing” issues cast during election campaigns are NOT “all-or-nothing.”

6. I ask, “How has a candidate responded to violence or used violence? And how does he or she plan to respond to and use it in the future?”

7. I consider how candidates envision America’s place and role in the world.

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I was editing a Fuller professor’s website today, for this short essay he just did on how Bush and the Republican Party isn’t really Pro-Life, if you look at how abortion has actually raised since he took office. I pasted the article below, it is short so you should check it out, especially if you are one of the one issue voters. If you want the rest of the story the website is posted below and under the Green Book in the middle of the page you will find “Data Sources and information Supporting Abortion’s Rise” but that material is somewhat more daunting to work through.

My Two sense (one motivation for why i am posting the article):
-The point I want to make is that abortion and other pop ethical issues should be more a concern of the church than of the country. The church has grown lax because we supposedly live in a Christian nation with a Christian President – we (the church) don’t have to deal pro-actively with these issues because we think somebody in some office is taking care of it for us. Christendom puts the church out of buisness and makes way for the kind of passive “spiritualized” Christianity we have these days.


Pro-Life?  Look at the Fruits
By Dr. Glen Stassen

I am a Christian ethicist, and trained in statistical analysis.  I am consistently pro-life. My son David is one witness.  For my family, “pro-life??? is personal. My wife caught rubella in the eighth week of her pregnancy. We decided not to terminate, to love and raise our baby. David is legally blind and severely handicapped; he also is a blessing to us and to the world.

I look at the fruits of political policies more than words. I analyzed the data on abortion during the George W. Bush presidency. There is no single source for this information – federal reports go only to 2000, and many states do not report – but I found enough data to identify trends.  My findings are counterintuitive and disturbing.

Abortion was decreasing. When President George W. Bush took office, the nation’s abortion rates were at a 24-year low, after a 17.4% decline during the 1990s. This was an average decrease of 1.7% per year, mostly during the latter part of the decade.  (The data come from Minnesota Citizens Concerned for Life using the Guttmacher Institute’s studies.)

Enter George W. Bush in 2001.  One would expect the abortion rate to continue its consistent course downward, if not plunge.  Instead, the opposite happened.

I found sixteen states that have posted statistics for 2001 and 2002. The number of abortions in those states increased in that one year by a total of 6,207. The ten states for which I have data for 2000 and 2001 had an increase of 4,067 in 2001, and the five states for which I have data in 2003 had an increase of 5,651 by comparison with 2000. Since these are actual reports and not merely polls of states with about thirty million women, The Z-test of statistical significance shows these increases were significant beyond 99.99% as representative of the U.S. It extrapolates to an increase of about 20,000 per year in the fifty states, instead of the expected decline of 28,000. That means 48,000 more abortions occurred in the United States in 2002 than would have been expected before this change of direction.

How could this be?  I see three contributing factors:

First, two thirds of women who abort say they cannot afford a child (Minnesota Citizens Concerned for Life website). In the past three years, unemployment rates increased half again. Not since Hoover had there been a net loss of jobs during a presidency until the current Administration. Average real incomes decreased, and for seven years the minimum wage has not been raised to match inflation. With less income, many prospective mothers fear another mouth to feed. 

Second, half of all women who abort say they do not have a reliable mate (Minnesota Citizens Concerned for Life). Men who are jobless usually do not marry. Only three of the sixteen states had more marriages in 2002 than in 2001, and in those states abortion rates decreased. In the sixteen states overall, there were 16,392 fewer marriages than the year before, and 6,207 more abortions. As male unemployment increases, marriages fall and abortion rises.

Third, women worry about health care for themselves and their children. Since 5.2 million more people have no health insurance now than before this presidency – with women of childbearing age overrepresented in those 5.2 million – abortion increases.

The U.S. Catholic bishops warned of this likely outcome if support for families with children was cut back. My wife and I know – as does my son David – that doctors, nurses, hospitals, medical insurance, special schooling, and parental employment are crucial for a special child. David attended the Kentucky School for the Blind, as well as several schools for children with cerebral palsy and other disabilities. He was mainstreamed in public schools as well. We have two other sons, and five grandchildren, and we know that every mother, every father, and every child needs public and family support.

What does this tell us? Economic policy and abortion are not separate issues; they form one moral imperative. Rhetoric is hollow, mere tinkling brass, without healthcare, health insurance, jobs, childcare, and a living wage. Pro-life in deed, not merely in word, means we need a president who will do something about jobs and health insurance and support for prospective mothers.

Glen Stassen is the Lewis B. Smedes Professor of Christian Ethics at Fuller Theological Seminary, and the co-author of Kingdom Ethics: Following Jesus in Contemporary Context, Christianity Today’s Book of the Year in theology or ethics.

A short article concerning Christ-based beliefs in a time of war.

Confessing Christ in a World of Violence Our world is wracked with violence and war.
Dr. Glen Stassen

But Jesus said: “Blessed are the peacemakers, forthey shall be called the children of God” (Matt. 5:9). Innocent people, at home and abroad, are increasingly threatened by terrorist attacks. But Jesus said: “Love your enemies, pray for thosewho persecute you” (Matt. 5:44). These words, which have never been easy, seem all the more difficult today.

Nevertheless, a time comes when silence is betrayal. How many churches have heard sermons onthese texts since the terrorist atrocities of September 11? Where is the serious debate about what it means to confess Christ in a world of violence? Does Christian “realism” mean resigningourselves to an endless future of “pre-emptive wars”? Does it mean turning a blind eye to torture and massive civilian casualties? Does it mean acting out of fear and resentment ratherthan intelligence and restraint?

Faithfully confessing Christ is the church’s task, and never more so than when its confession isco-opted by militarism and nationalism.

– A “theology of war” is emanating from the highest circles of American government.

– The language of “righteous empire” is employed with growing frequency.

– The roles of God, church, and nation are confused by talk of an American “mission” and”divine appointment” to “rid the world of evil.”

The security issues before our nation allow no easy solutions. No one has a monopoly on thetruth. But a policy that rejects the wisdom of international consultation should not be baptized by religiosity. The danger today is political idolatry exacerbated by the politics of fear.

In this time of crisis, we need a new confession of Christ.

1. Jesus Christ, as attested in Holy Scripture, knows no national boundaries. Those who confesshis name are found throughout the earth. Our allegiance to Christ takes priority over national identity. Whenever Christianity compromises with empire, the gospel of Christ is discredited.

We reject the false teaching that any nation-state can ever be described with the words, “the lightshines in the darkness and the darkness has not overcome it.” These words, used in scripture, apply only to Christ. No political leader has the right to twist them in the service of war.

2. Christ commits Christians to a strong presumption against war. The wanton destructiveness ofmodern warfare strengthens this obligation. Standing in the shadow of the Cross, Christians have a responsibility to count the cost, speak out for the victims, and explore every alternativebefore a nation goes to war. We are committed to international cooperation rather than unilateral policies.

We reject the false teaching that a war on terrorism takes precedence over ethical and legalnorms. Some things ought never be done—torture, the deliberate bombing of civilians, the use of indiscriminate weapons of mass destruction—regardless of the consequences.

3. Christ commands us to see not only the splinter in our adversary’s eye, but also the beam inour own. Alexander Solzhenitsyn observed that the distinction between good and evil does not run between one nation and another, or one group and another. It runs straight through everyhuman heart.

We reject the false teaching that America is a “Christian nation,” representing only virtue, whileits adversaries are nothing but vicious. We reject the belief that America has nothing to repent of, even as we reject that it represents most of the world’s evil. All have sinned and fallen short ofthe glory of God (Rom 3:23).

4. Christ shows us that enemy-love is the heart of the gospel. While we were yet enemies, Christdied for us (Rom. 5:8, 10). We are to show love to our enemies even as we believe God in Christ has shown love to us and the whole world. Enemy-love does not mean capitulating to hostileagendas or domination. It does mean refusing to demonize any human being created in God’s image.

We reject the false teaching that any human being can be defined as outside the law’s protection.We reject the demonization of perceived enemies, which only paves the way to abuse; and we reject the mistreatment of prisoners, regardless of supposed benefits to their captors.

5. Christ teaches us that humility is the virtue befitting forgiven sinners. It tempers all politicaldisagreements, and it allows that our own political perceptions, in a complex world, may be wrong.

We reject the false teaching that those who are not for our nation politically are against it or thatthose who fundamentally question American policies must be with the “evil-doers.” Such crude distinctions, especially when used by Christians, are expressions of the Manichaean heresy, inwhich the world is divided into forces of absolute good and absolute evil.

The Lord Jesus Christ is either authoritative for Christians, or he is not. His Lordship cannot beset aside by any earthly power. His words may not be distorted for propagandistic purposes. No nation-state may usurp the place of God.

We believe that acknowledging these truths is indispensable for followers of Christ. We urgethem to remember these principles in making their decisions as citizens. Peacemaking is central to our vocation in a troubled world where Christ is Lord.

weeks end and the overload

I think that i have too much on my plate, as a matter of fact i am pretty sure i do.
with 5 classes, 12 hours of work a week in the computer lab, starting a young life club and most importantly being a husband (which unfortunately takes back seat more often than not) I am finding that it is fairly difficult to stay on top of everything.

My main interests at the moment are not being fulfilled, that is I would really like to be spending more time at the middle school where Emily and I (along with a team of great people) pioneering a ministry. Not only this but I wish I could be writing and playing music, I have gotten to the point where music is non-existent in my life. I am continually getting worse at writing songs and playing guitar. I haven’t played out in months. Not to mention I have had very little time to work on video projects.

Why is it that relationships, take a back seat in moment like these?

Oh the overload. Well we are in week three and time is ticking. Lord help us to survive this rush and find light at the end of the tunnel, if there is an end…